How does it feel

Every time Elmiene asks "How does it feel..."  in his song, Time doesn't heal, I say....

It felt like two kids meeting at a random playground and playing as if we'd known each other from school.

It felt like I was able to take my shoes off and run in the field, look back at you, laugh and smile as you sat and watched me, until you got up to take your shoes off too.

It felt like I was able to let my hair down, take my mask off, and just be. 

And as your family gathered your things so you could go, I can see my smile slowly disappear as your playground time ended and you had to leave. 

It felt like I was left swinging on the swing alone, wondering when/if we would get to play again. 

Wondering when I would be able to take my shoes off and run again with you. 

Me looking around at a playground full of other people I could possibly play with, but none of them were you. 

That's how it feels.